Hi.

So today my lovely cat had to take the everlasting sleep. She have been ill for some time, and hadn't eaten  in about a week. She was old and have her cramps in her body. No meaning to keep her suffering more. But of course it hurts. And it's empty. 

So here... in the loss of my sweet little old girl, I want to showcase some other pretty cats here. 

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First off, I really hope you all had a lovely holidays. That you didn't have to suffer bad family or stressful times. That the firework was pretty and not to loud. I hope that if you had a bad 2016 that your 2017 will be better for you.  Lets have a great 2017, shall we?

Doll Plans

Oh gosh so much have happened the last year IU can't even try to figure it all out
I managed to get my 2 doll body, but not the two bodies I was supposed to get. Instead of 2 soom bodies I got a Crobidoll R body and an old AprilStory body. I love the AS body! it looks amazing and poses so great! Handsome handsome boy <3

I think I now have 8 or 9 floating heads. So many... But also, so glorious!! And the two bodies I mentioned are the floating head bodies. I have no plans on getting more bodies at the moment. Maybe some heads during the coming year tho :3  

Heads have been away on face up this past year. My Shiho got a new face up, as did my LittleRebel (love it so much), Mu and my old fairyland DES got a new face up as well. She is now updated and looks SO fab  I have to many dolls!! And still plans more. My latest deviation here shows the dolls I have. So. Many.... Now I have a Migidoll Ryu and a Dollshe hound that are in need of faces.

My doll plans for 2017 are toget my unpainted floating heads face uped. To get more work on them all (much needed for some).  And just generally fiddle with them. Keep make them better and better.

I do have some other doll plans as well, things I will work towards and so... But that will happen when it happens. And maybe I post about somewhere But mostly, I will do things for my self and my dolls ^^ It kind feels good. 

My life

2016 was not a good year for me. Not good at all. Last Christmas and New Year was just a mess. This years holiday was a little better, but still... so stressful for me. I'm so sensitive it's scary at the moment. I see it in my self, how this all affects me. and my bf is seeing it as well, and he gets worried when I forget things, when my head gets just over loaded and just shuts off, and I stare blankly and kind wondering what we are doing now. He do get worried when I only sleep every other night. And he do get worried when I break down in tears just to release the pressure. December have been even worse. My stress and anxiety got worse by each week. I will be working and hoping for a better 2017, that things will unravel and become better.  My bf says it will better all the time. And I really hope that and will work for to make a change to the better. I'm so blessed to have my bf by my side and friends to vent and talk with.  na dalso, I fill my different feeds with as much fluffy kittens and nice quotes I can. there have been a lot of fluffy kitten pictures last month. 

Self care

One thing that I have dona a lot the last month or so is taking a good look at my self and what is good or bad and what to do to make things better. And I have realized I have to stop caring and trying so much. Carting about people who don't care back is draining. And trying to please people who don't really care or who expect far to much is also self destroying. I have to stop doing that. I should just focus on myself and my feelings and mental health. I have just gained any kind of motivation back, and I have to care for it so it don't dies again. I will try things, doing doll stuffs again, very carefully and not rush things. Not trying to please anyone else but me really. And I think I will turn my IG to a private account. I like my cat and will post crappy phone pictures there. Might even make it private. I will not leave dA, even if the doll community here are getting smaller and smeller. I like it here, I like my little safe place here. Don't get me wrong, I will not  just be gone, I will not become unfriendly. I will just not try to been seen in the same way, will not try and get in the popularity game. If people want to friend me, they can find me. If people want to ask me questions about dolls, photography, mental health, I will be answering at my best knowings. I will not turn people away (unless you are recast friendly, then go away), I will just not waste my energy on people who are not interested back. To much energy being wasted by that. Better to care about the people who do want to follow me and who give me good energy back  This also goes toward family and friends, and that will be harder to actually do. starting to close some door that is damaging me and have been damaging me for years. But I still feel positive about it. Hopefully I will not get drained the same way. Hopefully I will have more energy and starting to feeling better.

Lets us all make a better 2017 together, yes? ^w^

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So I finally decided to get back in the game here again! I have missed it so. And what better way to start off with a very big art feature?  

Please check it out and spread the LOVE